I had rhubarb pie for breakfast.
It was calling me and I knew I had to have it before it was eaten by someone else in the house.... Wayne. That's how my selfish mind works around food.
I love rhubarb pie...but having it with out anything else on my stomach made me not feel good.... like there's rock in my gut and I'm getting a sugar headache.
oops...I did it again.
Here I go....but...
This is a step in the right direction. Instead of beating myself up, i'm going to step back and be a neutral observer of this action.
I have always complained that I don't know my body. I don't know what food affects me. BUT... I'm going to start. I'm going to pay attention when and what I eat..not for any other reason but to see what different foods do to my body. How they make me feel. Do I get a headache. How does my gut feel after eating protein, or salad or sugar...etc... It's time to begin this relationship.
I want to be in tune with my body and be more loving and kind to her.
I know this will take patience and slowing down and waiting, all things that up to this point I have not been good at.
I'm feeling blessed to have more time on this earth to figure this out...
So I've adopted the - eat when hungry-take a few breaths before the meal begins -Sit down and enjoy the food - stop int he middle and do a hunger/full check...then if satisfied...be done -Take the last bite, and push my plate away not worrying about the "wasteful" factor - mentality. It's a checklist that doesn't come easily, but it's doable.
This is huge...I've been doing this for only 2 days, but already I'm feeling better and free around food.